Hello World, it is August 8th 2025 and I am currently waiting for my Mom to text me and let me know she’s on the way to meet me at the gym because she has all of my gym stuff inside of her car. I was taking a nap and didn’t hear her leave or I would have put that into my car so I could be at the gym. Don’t get me wrong I could still go to the gym, but I like having my squatting shoes and video camera and whatnot. Thankfully my gym is open 24 hours so I can just hit the gym after she and I see a movie (We’re going to see Weapons tonight). Now all of that rambling out of the way, the point is that if I’m going to sit around the house waiting for a text; I’m going to try and get something ‘productive’ done.

Basically I have been wanting to write an article about my personal life for a while. Ill be recording a video in a few days but until then I just wanted to get some stuff off my chest. Stuff about love, relationships, myself, etc.

So I basically don’t really put myself out there a whole bunch. I mean I talk to girls on dating apps, I try and go on dates, but they don’t really happen often or work out. The most success I’ve had has been with women I meat randomly in the wild. I met one of those women a few weeks ago at a bluegrass festival my family has been going to since it started.

She came up to me and said she likes my vibe/aura/what I was doing (taking polaroid pictures and giving them to people) and then afterwards said that she had seen me around the festival and had always liked the vibe that I had given off while working. I’m trash crew and so Im driving up and down between the festival rows picking up peoples trash. Anyways we started talking and ended up dancing together for an hour/hour and a half. Incredibly surprising to me because I do not dance. I barely talk to women. It was a different experience than ones I am used to for sure.

So we talked and danced and spun around in circles and she told me about herself, I told her about me, and just in general smiled for an hour-hour and a half. Afterwards she said she was going to go to bed and get ready to pack up tomorrow and I was just like “Okay…..Bye”. Totally missing the “can I get your number? Can I see you again?” As I’m writing this it really stinks because I could have saved myself some time because I could have gotten from her “sorry not interested” off the bat.

Instead I spent the next 2 weeks trying to message her on social media/get in contact with her so I could follow up and tell her how awesome and incredible of a time I had with her. Really just find some way to repay her for the kindness she showed me because no matter how confident people think I am (posting YouTube videos, Posting on the Website, etc) I’m still a rather insecure person, maybe not insecure? definitely shy as hell. So when I met her and she noticed me and had noticed me in the past I was like…”wait you actually saw me? Wait you actually look at me?” In my head nobody is supposed to remember me. I’m just a drifter that hides in the background and will eventually fade away just like everyone else. I mean I like to hope that I’ll meet someone and make some memories with them. Deep down I just don’t see that happening. The insecurity doesn’t make me feel worthy in that kind of way.

But I am, and I’ll keep putting myself out there and maybe I’ll find the one.

I wish that Anna was the one for me, and who knows maybe in the future she still will be?

Until then it’s back to wandering around this planet and working on myself. Doing the best I can and hoping that someone else will notice me and appreciate me for what I am. End of the day I’m just a good ol fashioned lover boy looking for a princess I can show off to the world and scream about how much I love her and how much she’s mine.

Okay Mom texted me like 3 lines ago, Im going to go meet her at the gym and get my hot tub on before going to the Yard House then seeing Weapons.

Hope whoever reads this found something worth it considering you’ve gotten to this point.

Smoke Grass, Eat Ass, Be Excellent to Eachother.

Luke